Death confirmed of my laptop Airport

Hi All

I knew it would only be a matter of time until my laptop was no longer able to connect to the internet, the wireless thing on the mac laptop is called Airport.. and this could not connect, it would connect for a few minutes, but as soon as there was traffic it would cut out, so now it just failed to see my wireless router..

So I have packed up my laptop into a box along with all my Apple books, disks, this includes Apple software namely Final Cut Studio 2, Final Cut Express, everything,  box weighs a ton…

I am so sad about this, I just can not get positive, each time I try something further kicked in the balls, maybe if I was to cut the damn things off it would change my luck.. I am thinking about doing that, taking a razor blade to my nuts and removing the offending objects…

What has become of my life? Why is my life such a mess? What have I done wrong, that I am just not able to come up for air, I am drowning, hello is there anyone out there?

I have tried to ask for help, am I typing in martian? I thought I was using english, but it seems that I am using a language not heard on the 3rd rock from the sun..

What is there for me to do? Not much my laptop is pretty much finished, the screen is toast, the burner is toast, the battery is toast, the keyboard and mouse are toast.

Now that I think about it, I was not thinking right when I bought my laptop, I should have saved my money and had srs, I know that the route of my problem is my hatred of my body, I guess I was self medicating and trying to out aside my thoughts, I used poor judgement at the time I bought the laptop, I know that know! The damage has been done..

How I get out of this mess I do not know, it is a hell of a mess, I admit, I have ideas about what I want to do with my life,. maybe a career change would be better, I have always liked computers and at the time I should have done something my life was such a mess…

It has bee such a hard thing to deal with, I am not sure of who or what or how to think, I do not want to think, I have no trust of myself at the moment….

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